Letter to the Grandpa I've never met

by - January 28, 2018

Dear Grandpa,

Tears fill the brims of my eyes as I think about how gloomy that year must have been. 1978. It breaks my heart to think about how my mom lost you when she was just five years old, the tears that must have ran down her face and the sobbing that most likely ensued as my grandma told her that you had passed away. You would be so proud of my mom. She is one of the most beautiful, caring, compassionate and strongest people I’ve ever met.  
I had a step grandpa for awhile, but I barely knew him. It was like he never really was supposed to be my grandpa; he was just a replacement for something better that was missing. And I know that from the things that I’ve heard about you, I would’ve loved you. Every time my grandma talks about you, it sounds like young love that didn’t have enough time to truly blossom and it breaks my heart in two.
 “Grandpa Don would have been so proud of you,” I’ve heard people say, mainly at funerals of people in our extended family. I never had the chance to meet you, but they spent a lot of time with you, and they love telling stories about your rebellious spirit and love for adventure. When granddad passed away, his funeral was so bittersweet, but we knew that there was a joy amidst the sadness because he was reunited with you; his only son. I’m jealous of the people who were able to do life with you even for the short time that you were here and I know there is a special place in my heart that aches to meet you.
In the meantime, I wonder what you think of me as you look down from heaven and I wish you could’ve been a part of my life here. You could’ve been a part of my upcoming graduation celebration, the years of birthdays I’ve had and my many softball games. I would do anything to just have you come to one of games and see me play.
 I wish I could’ve given you  just one hug, played a strategic board game or two on Christmas day and sat around talking about how crazy this world is right now. I wish I could hear you tell me about how you met Grandma, what you liked about her and what drew you to her. What was your childhood like? What made you want to become a pilot?

Just over winter break when I was visiting Uncle Jack, I learned that he was invited to go on the same airplane that you were in when it crashed, but he had to stay late at work and didn’t go. He claims that if you were the one in control, it never would have gone down, that the entire accident would have been prevented if you were pilot. I just wish you had been the one controlling it. Then maybe I wouldn’t be writing this.
I can’t wait to meet you for the first time in heaven. I know that will be a wonderful day, and even though there supposedly aren’t tears in heaven, I can’t help but think I will be crying tears of joy. But until that day comes, you will always hold a special place in my heart and I look forward to it with great anticipation.
Love,
Your granddaughter


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7 comments

  1. this is so sweet, lauren. i have a grandfather who passed away before i met him as well. apparently we were very similar and i truly regret not being able to meet him in person. but it's such an amazing thing to hope he's up there in heaven right now, laughing up there when i laugh and crying when i cry. <3
    thank you for sharing <3 <3

    sophy of sophyslighthouse.blogspot.com

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    1. Awww!! It'll definitely be an amazing day when we will be reunited with those who passed before us! Thanks for reading!

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  2. I'm so sorry your grandfather passed away before you could ever know him. I have a grandfather I've never met either - he died when my dad was 12. I've always wondered what he was like in person. My dad said he loved history and science like I do and that he loved to look at the stars. I do that each night, and it makes me feel as if a piece of him still lives.
    It's odd but in a small way I feel I've known him.

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  3. This is so heartbreaking but sweet that you have written this. I adore this idea. I could write a few letters like this one. <3 Thanks for sharing.
    Simply Me

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  4. This is so sad and sweet and inspiring all at at the same time. I can't even imagine what it will be like when we are reunited with our loved ones who are in heaven. Thank you for sharing this, Lauren. <3

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  5. This...this was beautiful.
    Michaila
    seventytimeseven.com

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